It's All In Your Head

So with entering college and having to buy my books online so they are cheaper, I started to become very frustrated mainly because there were some mess ups when ordering the book. (I did get them, that wasnt the problem).

Now these mess-ups made me start to think about how stable our world really is. Nowadays, everything is over the Internet or backed up on a hard drive. Businesses rely on their computers to carry most of the work load that they have, and if they do have paper copies the filing system probably isnt up to par. Now what happens when all that information that the business has gets hacked? Or what happens if the computers crash, the whole system? Everyone that is connected to that business gets the short end of the stick. Now think of that on a mass scale...the whole world crashes. (This wasnt where i was going with this post, let me back track).

...The data in the computers is made up. Its only real because we say it is, sure we can see the numbers and words, but those numbers and words only mean anything because we give them meaning. Now I understand that they have had the same meaning for hundreds of years, but what would have happened if we went a different way? If we didnt listen to the Egyptians and their concept of Zero? And we gathered a whole new foundation for math, or reading, or science. Im sure there could have been a different way to express numbers, and what if the way humanity chose wasnt the right way.

We have hundreds of movies about technology that we as humans have not yet invented. Well if we have had the imagination to make up these gadgets (light sabers, telaporters, hover cars), why is it taking so long to get there? I know we have the technology and with time we will eventually get there, but im saying maybe there was a faster way or maybe our mathematical system is skewed and we will never get there.

What I am trying to convey is that we put so much value to things that only mean something because we decided they did, things that cant be grasped in our hands..(sure we can make cut-outs of numbers but thats still holding the material not the actual number). Now someone might say well you can hold money. Well money isnt a number. Its a paper/metal with a picture assigned to represent the numbers or the amount it is worth.

Its all in our heads.

Lessons on Forgiveness

So, it amazes me how cruel and inconsistent people can be, even when encountering someone who has been nothing but supportive and kind. How do these people view themselves? Do they think that they are right to completely shut someone out? Or do they simply not care and want to keep themselves happy believing whatever it is that they believe?

It is when you are shut out that you really wonder how well they knew you...or respected you for that matter. You ask yourself things like...why do I deserve this? What did I do?

Sometimes those people will have the decency to tell you with out being asked...some you will ask and get not reason, and finally the cases where you dont ask and you dont get an answer. In the rare cases that you do get a reason, then the person actually has some respect for you.

Then you gotta figure out how to deal with it. Do you act like a complete jerk to them too? Do you forgive them? Do you simply ponder what to do and never actually deal with it until so much time goes by you just forget or ignore them? I think all of these things happen...it just depends on how long you spend in each step that defines your relationship....1st comes the pondering..then jerk attitude...and finally forgiveness. Some people wont get past the 1st or 2nd and will just continue to be mean towards the one who did them wrong...And some will just forgive the wrong because it's in their nature.

Really, forgiveness is the only way to go. Why not forgive people? If anything forgiving someone will make them feel like a jerk...and actually feel bad for what they did. But thats not why you should forgive someone. You do it to relieve yourself. If you forgive it's getting that anger off your shoulders, it's giving you a clear conscience about the situation, so if there was any doubt about the situation and whose fault it was to begin with; by giving your forgiveness you're basically saying, "I dont care about what happened with us, I just want things to go back to how they were."

Then the ball is in the other persons court.

~Caitlin